Similarities and Differences of Suicide Mind and Suicide Body

There’s a difference between the first suicidal and this one, but I wonder if it comes from understanding rather than true differences. I am still in control is the main juxtapose. When it happened on shake night I lost the feeling of being in control of my own mind. The thoughts were consuming and I truly believed they were meant for me. The suicide gods … Continue reading Similarities and Differences of Suicide Mind and Suicide Body

Venting Leaking Cures and the Mentally Disorded Friends

On that emotional eating: Something melted in venting because it trinkled about a couple of hours more and then faded out. Oddly it faded after eating that chocolate bar and another one. I wonder if there actually was a nutrient I was starved for. Too late to find out now. The amount of rejection is causing the other memories of the human to fade. Oh … Continue reading Venting Leaking Cures and the Mentally Disorded Friends

The High Twins: Different Responses to Hormone Release

It has been an odd muckfuck of mental days. Nightmares about eating twenty Big Macs. Ever since switching to hammock sleeping my dreams have become as vivid as reality. I’ll wake up and be displaced for hours and truly feel like I’d cheated for the next awakened hours. I’ve been arrogant and cold, unable to connect to life. Yet I could feel…my body is becoming … Continue reading The High Twins: Different Responses to Hormone Release

The Literal Pain of Learning: Can we Feel new Connections Forming?

I was talking to my neuroscience psychology professor today about realization I felt last night. You know how it can hurt to learn something? ¬†Such as when you take a math class and learn a whole new concept and it feels like your brain hurts? Well what if connections are like muscles?¬† We break and regrow them, and feel a sense of pain. I’m sure … Continue reading The Literal Pain of Learning: Can we Feel new Connections Forming?

How Mental Disorders aren’t Our Fault: We Never Wanted Them

First of all a blog update. This blog has become way too cluttered with posts so I am going to be moving Box of Chocolates Experiments two over to a new blog. I will inform you humans of it when I do. For today I have two more video updates that deal with battling the bias in How Mental Disorders aren’t our Fault How Humans … Continue reading How Mental Disorders aren’t Our Fault: We Never Wanted Them