How Resource Assessment turns into Obsessive Compulsive Desires through Unbalanced Mind Equations

So I was reading back over this post and realized something: The Adaptation Resources Theory:  Completely Unproven but tested a few times in Ainsley’s brain and observed in other human’s brains as they talked to her/heard when she listened in on other human’s conversations. Terms: Adaptations Resources:  Resources that your brain finds in the surrounding environment to adapt to life with Adaptation Resources In the Brain/on a Neural Scale:  Corpus … Continue reading How Resource Assessment turns into Obsessive Compulsive Desires through Unbalanced Mind Equations

Venting Leaking Cures and the Mentally Disorded Friends

On that emotional eating: Something melted in venting because it trinkled about a couple of hours more and then faded out. Oddly it faded after eating that chocolate bar and another one. I wonder if there actually was a nutrient I was starved for. Too late to find out now. The amount of rejection is causing the other memories of the human to fade. Oh … Continue reading Venting Leaking Cures and the Mentally Disorded Friends

Emotional Food

I’m having this horrible connection with food. I realized sixty-eight seconds agoish that I’ve been emotional eating. Yesterday, days before, minutes of guilty mouth tastes being put inside me… Nothing was filling the void of this Dustin fellow. I think…it is past obsession. You see, since we work together I see him so often. There’s a mental corner we drag ourselves into with no escape … Continue reading Emotional Food

The Very Rough Words to The Suicide Me, My Next Book

Okay after The Box of Chocolates Experiment Phase One, but it might come right after that….or should phase two come out…oh decisions. Looking back I see more and more that I’ve been suicidal my whole life. I kept looking for reasons to allow myself to die. If I just accomplished getting Animal out I could finally die. I had finally paid my penance. In moments … Continue reading The Very Rough Words to The Suicide Me, My Next Book

The McSuicide Experiment Updated Day Sixty

These posts are from an experiment I did in 2015 that I am moving over to this website. Dripping fudge caressing raspberries that’s a ton of days. Honestly, I’m so weared out from this, and yet the energy for it seems to grow each day. I care. An incredible much about this. As much muchness as my tiny body can bear. Someday, I will leave … Continue reading The McSuicide Experiment Updated Day Sixty