When we are ‘faking it’ it’s generally due to us not wanting other people to know what’s actually going on with our emotions. We pretend to be in love so we can get all of our stuff before leaving a shared apartment *cough* self failures of reality *cough* So when I did this I took the emotion I had had of love and pretended it … Continue reading ‘Faking it’ With the Left Brain
We don’t connect to our food and as such we overeat. When our brain goes to eat it expects certain connections to the food, but instead we start to hold fear in all these little connections that burst across our whole brain. As fear gets associated with memory it gets stored in the connections of eating. When you adapt you feel that stored fear and … Continue reading Right Brain Eating
For the past days I’ve felt like a not feeling. I would try to feel and reach into my being for some fondling, to bring myself out of me, but me was holding on tight to myself. Laughter was strong and yet hard to come by. When I did laugh it felt like losing control, breaking myself of the dead for a moment. *imagine artsy badass … Continue reading Free food is Free so Nom Nom Mofos
I’ve been avoiding lifing. With beer, and sugars, and binging on Netflix. Do you know lovely fucking blissfing good it feels to not think with some alcohol slooping up all of that caring nonsensery bull and just taking away into forthy bubbles that deevolution the brain for a bit? No left hemisphere processing into obsessive thoughts that won’t stop for me! Who wants to think … Continue reading Avoiding OCD Honey Obsessions
I think we could turn the best human diet into an equation based on seasons and our personal ancestral history. Complications of One Diet to fit them all: From my little human mind perspective I imagine looking into the fields of past grounds. I see primal humans scouring the trees for coconuts and hunting among the dirts of earth for meat that they then roast … Continue reading The Human Diet Equation
I keep forgetting simple tasks. The automatic is failing me. I forget names of semi-close friends. People who I’ve called the right names with no issues or even awareness of the fact I was doing it. Those names were solid and set in my mind. Yesterday I forgot Weston and called him Wesley then Winston…I think it’s because moments before I was thinking Jeffrey. Then I … Continue reading Losing RL Names to Become a Cavewoman Huntress
You know how mental injuries get harder at night? More suicidal, anxiety, demons on the wall or creepy thoughts become harder to handle. I figured out the fuck why. It was bothering me on the night walk last night, where I was going for some alone time and to really contemplate life, and it sprung out like a wildacat from the dessert cactus (actually there … Continue reading Primalsense: Why Night Grows Scarier
There’s a difference between the first suicidal and this one, but I wonder if it comes from understanding rather than true differences. I am still in control is the main juxtapose. When it happened on shake night I lost the feeling of being in control of my own mind. The thoughts were consuming and I truly believed they were meant for me. The suicide gods … Continue reading Similarities and Differences of Suicide Mind and Suicide Body
Kids with autism. Have issues with language. They don’t connect with it. If they have a mental disorder that they could not have made through language/thought. Then mental disorders are not created from thought. They do not connect to life, and it is not from trauma. There is no gene for it. It involves an impact of genes interacting with the environment. I realized this … Continue reading Living to Die and Autism Proving Mental Disorders aren’t Created from Thoughts
This is a post from a blog I did called the box of chocolates experiment. I am putting them all on this site for uniting purposes. “There is no evidence to support the theory that dietary regimes can help children on the autistic spectrum.’ This is the common reaction of so many GPs and specialists when they are approached for advice and help with dietary … Continue reading The Autism Mind Disorder and Diet
