The Hibernation Desires of the Winter Mind: The Signaling Adaptations from the Primal Hemisphere

I’ve been analyzing this self case of depression. What is my mind doing? Fix it Vs Let it Be Instead of wanting to fix this world and seeing ways to do it, with hope singing in my ears and giving them a little bath from tiny fairies, I’m feeling that this world should just go it alone so I can leave and hope for a better next lifetime. The … Continue reading The Hibernation Desires of the Winter Mind: The Signaling Adaptations from the Primal Hemisphere

I May Have Food Poisoned Myself with Cow Heart

Yeah so….The sick became too sickly to just be the keto flu. Then I remembered that I put cow heart inside me. It was about three weeks old but it tasted fine so I just…sigh. Don’t worry. I regret it more than your twenty seconds on the subject of a mind does.Yet, despite being food poisoned the suicidal desires only crept in at first, but then … Continue reading I May Have Food Poisoned Myself with Cow Heart

Sugar Minded Donuts: The McSuicide Experiment Day 73

There posts are from an experiment I did in 2015 that I am moving over to this blog.   So last night I was consumed by sugar mind. I’d eaten a donut to fit in with the family and I couldn’t stop. After months of no sugar I’d lost my ability to control that addiction. I thought of every way possible to get more donuts. … Continue reading Sugar Minded Donuts: The McSuicide Experiment Day 73

Another ADHD Conquest: Untrapping Connections: The McSuicide Experiment Day Sixty Three

There posts are from an experiment I did in 2015 that I am moving over to this blog. Camera Story A few days ago I left information out of your brains. Information I put into draft and then left drafted and unpublished. Forgive me loves. I had a moment where I lost my camera when I really needed it for food blogging. The day before … Continue reading Another ADHD Conquest: Untrapping Connections: The McSuicide Experiment Day Sixty Three

The McSuicide Experiment Day Sixty Two: Oxytocin Forming Obsession Connections

These blogs are from an experiment I did in 2015 that I am moving over to here. So it is now 6:14 AM. I just got back from fucking Tim and being released from the oxytocin obession of Dustin. Combine the inability to see the future with oxytocin and you’ve got obsession. ADHD, the inability to connect to the future. A stop. Your body sees … Continue reading The McSuicide Experiment Day Sixty Two: Oxytocin Forming Obsession Connections

The McSuicide Experiment Updated Day Sixty

These posts are from an experiment I did in 2015 that I am moving over to this website. Dripping fudge caressing raspberries that’s a ton of days. Honestly, I’m so weared out from this, and yet the energy for it seems to grow each day. I care. An incredible much about this. As much muchness as my tiny body can bear. Someday, I will leave … Continue reading The McSuicide Experiment Updated Day Sixty

The McSuicide Experiment Day 59

Sleep Deprived Nutrients Controlled  Most important study update: I have never felt more comfortable naked. Remember when I was mind fludgered at sleep seeming like a nutrient depression that spiraled me into moments of uncontrolled scraggled anger? It was a crass anger I couldn’t convince my mind connections out of. Where the anger controlled me and blistered into wanting other’s death? I have been sleep deprived … Continue reading The McSuicide Experiment Day 59