I walked across the stones woven into a sidewalk pattern and thought of Elaine again. Every time I’ve removed my shoes and felt the deep massage from walking on rocks I think of that time when I first learned how it can stimulate your senses. The wonderment triggered of if the first time you learn something is where the brain goes when you do it … Continue reading Is the First Memory the Strongest
Well that doesn’t tell you of life. I get stuck, there’s so many paths to follow that backtracking takes days and then I find new trees to explore. If only those trees could talk. I think OCD is where the brain rebounds off the amygdala because it doesn’t activate the limbic system in order to complete its reactions.We’ve been a bit through this before. People … Continue reading Why do OCD Brains Have Less Limbic Activation yet Involve Fear?
This pause. Someone found my life remote and pressed the sideways enter. = There isn’t one for the flip. II The slashes across the top remind your brain of Roman Numerals too much. Every time I get time it ticks out of my fingers like waste. I waste it. Then it sends a ticker into my chest and I feel like I’m on the clock … Continue reading Imagine Title Here
Mindbursting Night I was blissing out in bursts of thought until 2 in the morning last night. For the average human that’s probably not a startle, but I’m one of those human animals that has a sleep cycle that I’ve stuck to most of my life. Lately, as age takes this body, it’s gotten to where I like to be asleep by eleven and wake up … Continue reading Neuroscience Hypothesis of Why You Can’t Sleep: Neurogenesis vs Memory
When we are ‘faking it’ it’s generally due to us not wanting other people to know what’s actually going on with our emotions. We pretend to be in love so we can get all of our stuff before leaving a shared apartment *cough* self failures of reality *cough* So when I did this I took the emotion I had had of love and pretended it … Continue reading ‘Faking it’ With the Left Brain
I’ve been analyzing this self case of depression. What is my mind doing? Fix it Vs Let it Be Instead of wanting to fix this world and seeing ways to do it, with hope singing in my ears and giving them a little bath from tiny fairies, I’m feeling that this world should just go it alone so I can leave and hope for a better next lifetime. The … Continue reading The Hibernation Desires of the Winter Mind: The Signaling Adaptations from the Primal Hemisphere
I keep forgetting simple tasks. The automatic is failing me. I forget names of semi-close friends. People who I’ve called the right names with no issues or even awareness of the fact I was doing it. Those names were solid and set in my mind. Yesterday I forgot Weston and called him Wesley then Winston…I think it’s because moments before I was thinking Jeffrey. Then I … Continue reading Losing RL Names to Become a Cavewoman Huntress
Caffeine is a stimulating bubbly stimulant that seems to make people irate. It also makes you jumpy and yet oddly stubborn. When tired we seem slower, we connect slower, pathways just seem to droop off. Yet on caffeine people jump into connections. They remember their keys and the last time they jumped out of a canoe or slapped a hoe. Just examples in my not … Continue reading Another Self Experiment for You: Studying on Drugs
These posts are from an experiment I did in 2015 that I am moving over to this blog. A sense of calm. Is it just a sense of control? When you finally feel the situation drip out from your mind like a stream you’ve melded from an ocean. Hyperactivity. ADHD. The loss of control as you connect everywhere and nowhere. Clinging to no connections until … Continue reading
