I walked across the stones woven into a sidewalk pattern and thought of Elaine again. Every time I’ve removed my shoes and felt the deep massage from walking on rocks I think of that time when I first learned how it can stimulate your senses. The wonderment triggered of if the first time you learn something is where the brain goes when you do it … Continue reading Is the First Memory the Strongest
Well that doesn’t tell you of life. I get stuck, there’s so many paths to follow that backtracking takes days and then I find new trees to explore. If only those trees could talk. I think OCD is where the brain rebounds off the amygdala because it doesn’t activate the limbic system in order to complete its reactions.We’ve been a bit through this before. People … Continue reading Why do OCD Brains Have Less Limbic Activation yet Involve Fear?
Her laugh shatters glass and breaks the window to her soul The yesterday. Flittering flutes could take the melody of the background noise. In silence thoughts would dance to its tune. Yet maybe it is the song I listen to now that fills the brain waves of memory’s past.http://8tracks.com/igniparous/when-the-sea-fills-your-lungsEach day or night or both there is an awareness thought. A thought that so provokes my mind … Continue reading Tea and Twinkies
So, I am at this loss, and maybe it’s a projection of lost resources. Maybe this sense of loss if even just from this moment, of being high, and wishing I had steak. You know right now, I truly truly wish I had steak. Maybe that is even from just seeing this picture. It took me a moment to ‘realize’ that, because the initial flash was … Continue reading Brain Evaluation of Itself Whilst High Unedited Mindstream
The American GodsFar later project, when I can travel. Write a proposal for a grant.It can tie into celebrities and the past goal of wanting to talk to them. I’m finally bringing life strings together into a knot. So which ones need to be cut?There will be a web soon, and right now the paths are too estranged, not all connecting to one place so … Continue reading American Gods and Animals
This pause. Someone found my life remote and pressed the sideways enter. = There isn’t one for the flip. II The slashes across the top remind your brain of Roman Numerals too much. Every time I get time it ticks out of my fingers like waste. I waste it. Then it sends a ticker into my chest and I feel like I’m on the clock … Continue reading Imagine Title Here
…… Don’t know how word just…get in my head. You’ll feel the woosh. The mind blow. I need to just transfer my mind blow to you, like a hard drive of my mind you plug into yours… Then upload my chemistry into yours. Then you’ll feel the nerves explode from the roof of your head as uploaded neurons stimulate your reality. I hope we get … Continue reading Do we Disconnect our Brains from ‘Reality’ as an Adaptation?
Dreams merged into reality more. I would remember them during the day with vivid flashes, oddly enough, as my brain is just realizing, they were more vivid than my ‘true’ memories. There was a ‘lag’ in general to reach into memories, but the moment I thought of the emotion attached to the dream, of not being able to help people, the dream vividly showed itself … Continue reading Can Dreams Replace Reality in Schizophrenia
I’ve been trying to figure it out Why it is that when I have sugar I’ll become a defective human being, and yet others eat it every day and they seem perfectly fucking fine. I’d wired it as they have adapted to the sugar in my robobrain, but my human side begrudged their superiority. I used to be able to handle the potent tingles of … Continue reading Drugs Creating Adapted Brain Flows
So life right now.The Arizona water thing…well. It..sigh fuckThe things I would do if my parents were dead.You see the world is this game to me. Truly, it is. I don’t see the reality of it. All of the ‘game’ feelings you have when you play one, that it doesn’t matter if you fuck up because it’s all fake anyways, that’s how I generally feel … Continue reading Dripping Clouds Soak Our Brains