I am so bloody tired.

I forgot the Internet/staring at a screen can keep you awake for hours as it fucks with your bioeyes…things. The things in me that I see with. Oh. Ha. Someone yesterday said cry your eyes out and I laughed and said if you actually visualize it that’s odd. They went quiet. Instead of freaking out and feeling social seclusion and anxiety I just let it sit there. Such a large step for a redheaded awkward child.

Okay I didn’t forget that staring at a computer screen all day is bad for you. I just ignored it.

I got very excited by all the likes and views and then disconnected and realized it was all in my head. In fact the people I am falling in love with online I have never met. No matter how full my heart gets or how connected I feel I am only accessing past connections of socializing.

If you were to expose a human who had never met humans to the Internet could they still feel connected to other humans through it?

Or is it all just the idea of it?

That test can’t really happen but I did think of a different one yesterday.

You watch the brain as someone gets on the Internet and “socializes” with people and then you watch someone’s brain as they socialize with people in real life.

How different are the connections?

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